Mistakes

Curse you Past for staining my memories
For it is you that brings me down
Why must you haunt me?
Must I always live in regret of the past?
Things I have done
The things that incite shame within
Must I always live with your admonishment?
By day my life distracts
By night my dreams remind
Haunting images of transgressions past
Of the hurt I have caused
Why won't you let me be?
What is it that you want from me O Past?
That you would constantly remind me of my shame?
That you would seek to dishonor me even now?
"You can't be forgiven, you won't be forgiven" you shout at me.
Shall I recognize your screams and suffer remembrance?
"Monster, Your life is but a facade to me" you declare
Why must your cruel hand reach my heart
And grasp it with the icy coldness of the hurt I have wrought?
You rear your ugly head in remembrance of my sins.
You transcend time itself to haunt me,
How will I ever surmount the mistakes I have made...
The hurt I have caused?
I can not make the choice this day to forgive myself.
Suffering remembrance, forgiveness isn't merited.
Not an option, Not a choice, Forevermore.